RIP To My 20-Something Years

My mom reminded me that today is my last day to be a 20-something because I turn 30 tomorrow. I know that tomorrow morning I'll wake up and won't feel any different but for some reason turning 30 is messing with my head. Not quite sure why, but it is.

Maybe it's because I thought that I would've done more or done certain things by the time I was 30. I guess that's why my resolution for this year is to accomplish more of my life goals, one at a time. As I look back over the past 10 years I wonder what happened to all that time? It feels like it flew by but yet it also feels like I turned 20 like a decade ago... LOL ;) Ok, ok...I know that was corny. Truth is sometimes it feels like it was a lifetime ago. lol




Overall the past 10 years have been great! Sure, there were ups and downs cuz that's just life. But I got married, found a job that I love, made lots of new friends and reconnected with some "old" ones. I became an aunt. I've moved 4 times and you would think I'd have less stuff by now but no, I don't. I lost my dad to cancer but gained a second one and have been blessed by knowing both. I know I could list off a bunch of other things because even the seemingly "small" things make up something in your life. However my brain is not co-operating at the moment. lol

So as I bid goodbye my 20's I raise a glass to the next 10 years. I can't wait to see what's in store! :)


Love,
Jessy <3


P.S. Look at the card my mommy sent me! I love it and the sentiment on the inside was very sweet. Oh and you see that adorable little baby?! That would be me :D ...almost 30 years ago. lol

Hello, My Name Is Jessica....

And I am a procrastinator. There, I have said it. I've known it for a long time and I've said it before but this is my confession and resolution blog post. So I'll state it plain and simple.

I have this big issue that I need to just face, recognize, and change. I procrastinate and what's worse is that the majority of the time my procrastination stems from getting distracted. I can't seem to stay focused on one thing for too long. This is true in all facets of my life. I can't read just one book at a time. I have to start multiple craft projects because I get bored with the first one. I play World of Warcraft and have 9 toons but I only have 1 at max level. /sigh.... Oh here's another one...I have 9, yes Nine blog post drafts just sitting there in the Draft folder. Fail, fail, fail-diddy Fail, FAIL!!

I don't usually believe in making New Year's Resolutions but my eyes have been opened to the fact that I procrastinate WAY too much. So here is my simple resolution. I resolve to take life one step at a time. My mind is racing with all of the things that I want to do this year, I can think of at least 10 things right off the top of my head. And maybe I will get to them but this year I am really going to try and focus on one goal at a time.

My first goal is going to be getting my driver's license. I'm almost 30, like *almost* as in just a few days from now, 30. And I really struggle with the fact that I don't have a license and haven't for a while. Not only does not having a license make life difficult, but it makes me feel like I'm still a kid that has to be driven around everywhere, and it Sucks. I Hate being stuck at home with no option to just hop in the car and drive somewhere. I am really not a homebody, I would much rather be out doing something. So I feel like a caged monkey sometimes.

I am going to make 2014 different. In 2014 I will do one thing at a time. It is time to feel like I've actually really accomplished something. I always feel good after finishing a project, or a book, or anything really. So this year I plan to accomplish life goals; things that I've wanted to do but have put off. I love checking things off lists so maybe I'll make a list and cross them off as I complete them.

Speaking of lists, I have done some things off my 101 in 1001 list so I'll update that. Then hopefully in the near future I will post an update post and tell you all about what I've done! :) That is a list for another day...one thing at a time, remember?! ;) lol

Your Self-proclaimed Procrastinator,
Jessy <3

Crushed and Created

Ok, so as you may have figured out I love a variety of music. Music is a way of expressing myself and who I am. If I am depressed, I listen to depressing music just to know that someone else gets depressed too. If I feel empowered, I listen to something that feeds that empowerment. Lately I have been in the need of some new music, new artists, and something different but I just could put my finger on what my mood has been. Every once in a while Spotify (aka Pandora on steroids) will send me emails with artist suggestions so I picked one of those artists, started a radio station for them, and fell in love.

I'm sure you're curious as to what I fell in love with so here are some of the artists that I've found: Ryan Calhoun, Elise Lieberth, Jason Walker, Sara Haze Jon McLaughlin, and Caitlyn Smith. I was getting very tired of mainstream music so the new voices, EP albums, and covers are a wonderful change of pace.

The real purpose of this blog post is to share a song that I came across in my new music discovery; it's called Crushed and Created by Caitlyn Smith. Lately I have been feeling very crushed. I've been depressed, work is stressful and full of drama, I'm coming up on my 30th birthday in January and in some aspects I'm not where I thought I would be, and it's hard for me. This song talks about the fact that we are crushed and created the same way. Life is a cycle of things that die, so that something else can live.

The bridge talks about being stronger in the end. I don't think, ok I know, when it comes to my current situations I'm not strong BUT this song provides me hope. It serves as a reminder that I may feel crushed, discouraged, and out of place now, but it won't always be that way. At the end of these tests and trials, I know that I will come out freer, wiser, and stronger; everything will work out in the end, it always does.





Jessy <3

P.S. If you don't know about Spotify, you're missing out. Spotify gives you the chance to not only listen to random songs like Pandora, but you can also create your own playlists. You can Star songs to go back to later and it's perfect for music addicts like me. Check it out HERE!

Things That Remind Me of Fall

Fall is my favorite season, I love everything about it. Carmel Apples, Crisp Mornings, Fog, Pumpkins, Kettle Corn, Colorful Leaves, Witches and Black cats, Apple Cider, Scarecrows, Scarves and Boots, Trick or Treaters, Pumpkin Spice Lattes, and my list could go on. When I was growing up Fall was something that I looked forward to, especially once we moved to Idaho. I only lived there a few years but I fell in love with it. The town that I lived in was small, or at least felt small, and every year they would have different festivals on Main Street. During October it was the Scarecrow festival, they would have the streets all decorated with pumpkins and hay bales, scarecrows and witches. They would make drums of kettle corn and apple cider was the drink of choice. Arizona is very different, we don't have seasons. lol So right now I am missing the old times. Here's to wishing I could bring Fall to Arizona...lol

What reminds you of Fall or what are some of your favorite memories?

Jessy

Writer's Block

Dear Little Blog & Followers,

I know it has been a very long time since I've have posted anything and I feel bad. I have definitely missed blogging but every time I sit down to write something I don't know what to write about. My life has been kind of boring and a little depressing lately so I don't what to post my rants or be a downer. I can guarantee that my posts would be both of those and no one should have to read about my drama.

That being said I will keep this post brief. Hopefully someday soon my life will be less boring, a little more uplifting, and worth writing about. I have been doing a few things with my 101 in 1001 list so maybe I'll post an update soon.

Yours Always,
Jessy